Trapped Inside The Emptiness

Protect me from what I want.....

2005-06-24T04:26:46Z

Can you feel the pain of emotion trickle down your chest
from your razorblade of worthlessness.

always hurting you don't know your name
everyone loves you but you always feel the same

cut through your pain that no one can see.
cut through the person you could never be.

She needs to be rescued from the world
the world that threw her away.
she needs to be rescued but she doesn't want to stay.

can you feel the pain of emotion trickle down your leg
from your razorblade of which you beg for forgiveness.

She can't changed who she is though she will give it a try
how would it feel to go through this life as a lie.

throw yourself away and bleed your sorrows
for there is always light shining on tomorrow.

a mind like puzzle pieces shoved in to a box
no one ever try's to put together your thoughts.

can you feel the pain of emotion trickle down your hand
this is not the life that you planned.

Never look up when things come crashing down.

2005-06-17T00:43:47Z

Nothing much has happened really I am moving again but that is about it. My website is still going up I just don't know when. I am working on drving so YAY for me. Ummm thats about it. I miss all of you. especially Steven, Kry and Kylie I wish I had you here as much as I before :(

my tattoo......

2005-06-08T01:12:45Z

Jared Said so.......So I did!

2005-06-07T02:16:47Z

Well I kept my promise to jared and got his name tattooed on my ASS! No seriously I did Jared "cloven" Page on my ass. my right cheek to be precise

wow its been so long......

2005-05-13T15:29:55Z

It has been forever since I have updated this thing. I hope you all are doing ok. It was my Birthday on Monday. YAY I am not a teen anymore! Anywho not much has happened in the land of Jen. So to take up the empty space that I am not writing in I stole a quiz from Ashly to Fill it. I promise to try and update more. Here you go.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Sad Jen wants Her Friend Back..........

2005-01-29T18:11:09Z

We interupt this broadcast for a special report!

2005-01-25T04:04:53Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEVEN!!!!!!!

Wow it seems like just yesterday I was buying you discusting sex toys and drawing faces on Jared's Cock! Hope this Birthday will me as memorable as that one.

Photograph by Jen...I call it Hot sex On a stick

2005-01-22T06:36:59Z

I am a Magical Being........Now take off your Bra!!

2005-01-20T04:33:27Z

BRE IS A MUFFIN!!!!!!!

that is all.

You Never know until it hits you and it will hit you too late.......

2005-01-03T03:59:46Z

There are twenty years to go
Twenty ways to know
Who will wear, who will wear the hat

There are twenty years to go
Best of all I hope
Enjoy the ride, the medicine show

Them's the breaks for we designer fakes
We need to concentrate on more than meets the eye

There are twenty years to go
We're faithful and alone
Best of sorts, the broken heart bestowed

There are twenty years to go
Punch drunk and we blow
The worse the start, the mercy parts the phone

Them's the breaks for we designer fakes
We need to concentrate on more than meets the eye
Them's the breaks for we designer fakes
But it's you I'll take 'cause you're the truth not I

There are twenty years to go
Golden age I know
But all will pass, and end too fast you know

There are twenty years to go
Many friends I hope
Though some may hold the rose, some hold the rope

That's the end and that's the start of it
That's the whole and that's the part of it
That's the high and that's the heart of it
That's the long and that's the short of it
That's the best and that's the test in it
That's the doubt to doubt the trust in it
That's the sight and that's the sound of it
That's the gift and that's the trick in it

You're the truth, not I
You're the truth, not I
You're the truth, not I
You're the truth, not I

A poem for Jared.......

2004-12-30T03:59:30Z

A rose is so fresh, beautiful and perfect.
in time the bud begins to open and creates a brand new look.

Still the same flower just as beautiful just evolved
you still stand in awe of it
noting each petal and the color
you still get smile every time you see it.

The rose soon starts losing it's petals
Still gorgeous with all the imperfections.
you still like the way it lights up the room.
You still smile every time you see it.

The rose begins to wilt
No longer will you see it's beautiful petals
No longer will you watch it evolve.

But you will always remember how beautiful it was.
and every time you close your eyes and think about it
you will still smile.

I'm waiting for your call and I'm ready to take your sweet 666 in my heart.

2004-12-19T18:15:20Z

We don't know why things happen but they just do there is no way of stopping them are staling them for just one more day. Although we all wish we could. Just to tell him things that we would never have thought to say to him. (Probably for fear of him laughing at us.) Regardless of if you were on the outs or ins with him. We all loved him and it is our love that will keep the memory of him alive. I sat last night pondering why it was him and why didn't I call him more. WHY WHY WHY! for the first time I had to accept that life is only one stage that we are al Mortals. In a split second it could be anyone. Our group has drifted apart so much. But he brought us back. Regardless of how you felt about Jared. You must always look upon his life with a smile on your face and the sweet sound of H.I.M in your ear. He would have wanted it that way. I love you Jared and we will all continue too forever. We will all be together some day until then you need to cherish the ones around you now.

p.s. I know when I see you at the pearly gates you will be naked!

Sleep in the land where sleep is no more.........

2004-11-21T08:27:16Z

I am up Down touch the ground, puts me in the mood.
Up down touch the ground, in the mood....for food!
I am stout round and I have found speaking poundage wise.
I improve my appetite when I exercise.

Night.

it's been so long....Like Ron Jeremy's Cock!

2004-11-12T17:15:50Z

It's been so long since my last entry. I have just been so busy and when I am not busy This is the furthest thing from my mind. I hope all is well with everyone. Though I am starting not to care anymore. Especially all the drama that I hear about it is so lame. Kinda funny in a way though because everyone lives off of it. I just like how the people who "hate it most" are always involved in it somehow. The only people I really talk to on a daily basis are basically Cherie and James. They make me happy especially Cherie. I don't know what I would do without her. Probably nothing considering the people I thought were my friends think it is too far to come see me. Which is funny because I don't think it has anything to do with the drive at all because they would drive to bum fucked egypt for a party. Thats just it my house can not be pissed on anymore so they don't like it. A bunch of fucking users if you ask me. Yeah I don't have a car and I do call people for rides but it's not everyday and I give them money and they hang out for a while so I wouldn't exactally count that as using. Another thing is the lies. "Oh I dont like them" Ok....THEN WHY HANG OUT WITH THEM! "I don't do drugs anymore" ok...THEN WHY ARE YOU BUYING THEM! quite frankly I got the better end of the deal. I get to talk to the people that really care about me.

I love you Cherie!

YAY!!!! NEW JOB!

2004-09-23T18:02:09Z

I just got a job at Fascinations on 32nd street and Bell. So everyone should come buy something from me. YAY!!!! I havent quit my old job so I dont quite know how this is going to work out. Oh and I haven't packed barely anything hopefully I will this weekend. Oh yes for those who didnt know I am moving to 104st. and Thompson Peak. So yes ok gotta go to work bye bye.

Sleepy time in Jen Land.....................

2004-08-18T05:15:29Z

All I do is work and sleep I am so boring but at least I am making money. My memory has become so bad lately I forget everything. I am suprised I remeber my password to get online. I know I am supposed to call like 4000 people but I just can't remember who. It is really sad. At least I get to go to California this weekend and hang out with James. Night Night

Random Thought.......

2004-07-23T04:58:42Z

I want to enlarge Little Ashly's PENIS!!!!! just for shits and giggles.

I make Bradley's heart sad!

2004-07-23T04:37:53Z

So Cherie and I are back at our old jobs because the lady that was working there got into a car accident and broke her leg and won't be back for a long while. But we are working more hours which means more money and no sleep. That's ok though I like money better. Cherie and I also opened up a checking account so that we can cash our checks with no problems that is going to help me because if my money is out of sight it is out of mind or at least I hope. Bre and I got two week passes for 24 hour fitness so that we can work off some of our fat well not Bre but so I can work off my fat So I have been pretty busy. I am looking forward to Bradley and Becca's Party Monster Pre-show it's gonna be great. I really think that if it was anyone else doing it that it would suck but they have so much passion for the movie and that's the way it should be. Anywho My neck hurts I am gonna go watch Party Monster!

Stupid drama.....

2004-07-16T05:47:47Z

I just want to say that despite the rumor going around. Cherie and I are very happy and are not going to break up anytime soon. So please if you hear this rumor put an end to it we would very much appreciate it thanks.

All this time I thought I was the man in the relationship.....

2004-07-15T18:10:19Z

I can think of a few things that are totally wrong with this like why is my father not only a woman but my dog as well? That and why is Cubby my brother?It actually kind of amuses me.

Slap me in the face and call me BITCH!

2004-07-12T06:42:37Z

I feel like shit. I have this stupid head cold/allergy thing happening and it sucks! Right now my head feels ten times bigger than it should be. I have a stuffy nose and I am so sleepy. I couldn't sleep last night at all really because I couldn't breathe. I haven't been able to sleep very much in the past few weeks because of the dreams that I have been having. Actually they are more like nightmares. I have woken up crying twice from them and a few times to yell at Cherie for what she did in my dream not realizing that it didn't really happen. She is a good sport though. I don't know if I even would get to sleep at all if she wasn't next to me. I think I would freak if I was alone and those dreams happened. They are mostly about people dying and then talking to me. I had one though that had someone from my past in it and it was so real but I beat the shit out of them like bashing their head into a wall and shit and they just kept laughing at me. That was weird. Anywho I guess I am going to go take a shower seeing as I am sick it might make me feel a bit better.

Gays Voting for Bush is like Jews voting for Hitler......

2004-07-11T18:35:34Z

Again I am writing a very pissed off journal entry because a certain President is stupid! I can put up with many stupid things but a publicity stunt that hurts the rights of other AMERICANS! is fucking un-called for. Bush is doing another campaign to ban Gay marriage this time for good. A constitutional amendment would be the best thing he said.Why? because we have to protect this nation and in this nation the definition of marriage is the bond between a man and a woman!!!!!!! Like I have said before Marriage has always been based upon love and trust of two people it shouldn't matter WHO THEY ARE! I don't need to hear this stupid shit especially from a man that is from a state where it is ok TO FUCK YOUR SISTER! The only reason he is even bringing this up now is because elections are coming and he has realized that he has been shit and probably won't be re-elected so he is trying to get the "MAJORITY" On his side I am going to use a quote that I think best describes this. "Sometimes "The Majority" only means all the fools are on the same side."

Pussy for me...Pussy for you

2004-07-11T05:49:08Z

You Are 100% Skilled at Going Down On a Girl

Chances are your tongue is so tired now that you can't even talk

Not only do you rock at oral - you do it a lot

Your girlfriend is the happiest girl on the planet. No, really.

And, you Mr. (Ms.???) Pussy, are the most sought after lover in your town

How Well Do You Go Down On Girls?

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James St. James is Sooooo Random....

2004-07-06T19:18:04Z

So I got an email today from James St. James and in it he writes nothing but a rant and rave on how the new spiderman movies don't show Tobey Mcguries crotch at all then move's on to this and I quote: "went shopping yesterday and spent my rent money. whoops. i was just a little depressed and couldn't stop myself from buying ugly pants. I mean UGLY pants. I don't know what came over me." He always seems to brighten my day with his randomness.

Stolen From Becca......

2004-07-05T19:44:52Z

I knew me and Steven Were soul-mayes on a Homosexual Level. Little Ashly's just trying to dip into my Kool-aid.

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